I DONT KNOW WHAT ON EARTH I AM DOING HERE WHEN I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING THE FREAKING HOME ECONS.
or maybe spending my time more wisely. dammit.
as if barely making the mark isnt bad enough, maybe i should start FAILING every single thing before i learn my lesson.

me pleading with myself : JUST FOCUS IN CLASS OKAY ?

maybe i should learn to be depressed when i see those test papers.
maybe i should learn to be competitive, with myself
nothing is working working and i feel too relaxed for my own good.
maybe even doing the logbooks will be better than stoning.
NOW I FEEL LIKE SOME PSYCHO
must those mistakes always be made?

i now see the little confidence you had in yourself.
but i still think youre perrfect and well, at least youre not antisocial, like some people HERE.
i still feel lonely deep inside.
for who will be there ?
to share joys and sorrows and be through thick and thin with ?

i dislike myself for who i was. and for who i am.

; Re-write The Past

5:16 pm